That’s all I know
I look for you
And just say
Before I sleep
I hear you say
Near the edge
And waste my time
Just waste my time
~ Mazzy Star
At this exact moment, that seems like a loaded question to ask myself. I have been teaching yoga for five years and one of my very first students, Bill, just passed away. In a time of reflection I have realized that you really don’t know how much impact someone has on your life as well as you on someone else’s.
I remember the first time that Bill attended my Yoga class. He was new to Yoga; new as in it was his first class ever. However, I was also new because I at that time had just graduated from doing my Yoga Teacher Training, we were new together.
He had an amazing witty sense of humor. In fact, I use to call him The Troublemaker. He would show up and say, ‘What have you got for us today?’ The other students in the class would laugh because as you do in my classes, everyone gets to know one another, and at times it seems like more of a social gathering than Yoga.
Bill was a family man who loved his daughters very much. He would show up to class with his daughter and then off they’d go for their frequent father/daughter dates. I always thought to myself how cool, how special it was that a father and daughter would come to practice together. What a unique bond. He was so very kind, always with a smile on his face. Bill was a man full of life, who soaked up every moment. I thank him for being my student, and for trusting me when I had no idea what I was doing.
A week later I found out that my dear friend lost his husband unexpectedly. He was a wonderful, charismatic beautiful man. I hope that he is dancing in the stars, kissing the sun, and hugging the moon wherever he is.
I am reminded that life is short. That no matter how much control we think we have; we don’t. Life is unpredictable. What can I control? I can be responsible for myself as a human being. I can choose to act with integrity in an authentic way leaving petty emotions where they belong, which is in nothingness. I can choose to find my happiness. Instead of saying I want to do this or I wish I could. I am going to do it. Whether it is telling my parents that I love them or traveling to India like I’ve been saying I’m going to do for years. There are so many things that I want to do in my life. I want to make an imprint. I want to make a difference.
I’ve learned that we should all live the life that we want to be in love with now. Love the people, your people who you refer to as your righteous posse. Your path is for you. Get on it and design your story because no one can do it like you. There is, no other you.
“Cherish your solitude. Take trains by yourself to places you have never been. Sleep alone under the stars. Learn how to drive a stick shift. Go so far away that you stop being afraid of not coming back. Say no whenever you don’t want to do something. Say yes if your instincts are strong, even if everyone around you disagrees. Decide whether you want to be liked or admired. Decide if fitting in is more important than finding out what you’re doing here. Believe in kissing.”
~ Eve Ensler
My friend Kate Drummond is the creator of A Jock’s Guide To Cooking. A Jock’s Guide To Cooking is a Real Reality Cooking Show that has teamed up with KidSport Ontario. Kate was an elementary school teacher for sometime before she decided to pursue her dream of acting. She is also a jock who is passionate about food, but not so skilled in the kitchen. The show is above and beyond hilarious! Kate is charming and fun. So, when she messaged me asking if I would be the guest blogger for January, I jumped at the opportunity and of course said, ‘YES!’ This story I am about to share with you is one of my favorite childhood memories. Be sure to stop by A Jock’s Guide To Cooking, and check out Prinkle, Prinkle.
As you all know, I wrote and shot my first film A Voice To The Writer with Ardent Pictures this past Summer. We are in the middle of editing it as we speak. It’s coming soon my friends; girl scout honor. My friend Samantha Swan who is one of the founder’s of Ardent Pictures wrote a great article that everyone should read. Whatever your medium of art is, it is applicable to you. Here is, Just Make Stuff.
Have an amazing day.